The El Paso Trip was great!  Well, I lie, part of it was great (the EP part) the little bitty town wasn't so great.  I'm not gonna lie, talking to these kids who have absolutely ZERO desire to EVER leave their hometown or get an education was a little depressing.  Seriously, I said "Who wants to go to college?!" trying to pump them up and the answer I received was "Yeah, no, I don't think so."  Depressing.  I was under the impression that most teenagers wanted nothing more than to get out of their hometown and out of their parents' house, but boy was I wrong.  The EP part of the trip was great -- the kids all had great questions, really, really, really wanted to learn about getting into school, and I think maybe a few of them might even be interested in coming to my school and maybe even will go into my college within the university, which is the whole reason I do these trips.  After the tiny town, EP was a real relief and day brightener. 

My phone broke.  As in it ceased to live.  :(  Poor phone, it was good while it lasted.  On the bright side I got a new one (I had to call into the cell provider because the guy at the store wanted me to buy a brand new one for $300.  Um, no thanks!)  Going a single weekend without a phone -- I thought I was going to die!  I don't even own a watch, I rely on that dang thing for everything.  I was stressin'!

University Day was wunnerful.  Lots of kids with their parents who really want to go to school and learn everything they can about the university before heading up this way for an awesome educational career!

My Birfday was terrific.  I don't remember much of the celebration!  But, I had a good time and I love my girls for going out and especially for my Kansas friend for driving me home (and making sure I survived the night!)  xoxo 

The Grad has not been heard from.  Well, I lie.  I saw him on campus and guess who couldn't so much as say hello to me but say 'hi' to everyone else in the group I was standing with.  Jerk!  So over it.  Apparently on Saturday night (birfday celebration) I tried to get him to come over so I could speak my mind to him.  Eep!  Probably a good thing he didn't come over -- that's a convo I'd rather be sober for!

Fiction Boy has been skipping class almost as much as I have!  Or maybe we are skipping on different days.  Or maybe he dropped the class.  :(  Let's hope not. 

Now, I just need to catch up on EVERYTHING else in my life!

So, Thursday night around 1:30...so, technically, Friday morning.  I get a message from The Grad.

In typical man fashion, "hey".  That's it.  Geez, why can't guys just so what they want straight up in the first message?  So the next one is, of course, "What are you doing?" 

Anytime there comes a good old fashioned "What are you doing question?" it means "Hey, I want to get some."  Such crap.  Anyways, I manage to, in my very sleep-ridden state, to shoot off a response "sleeping".  I stupidly think that will be the end of it, but of course it isn't.  Instead, I get about 8 messages in the span of 10 minutes.  Everything from "Sorry to wake you up but..." to "Can I come over?"  I give the classic response ("no") and fall back asleep only to be awakened an hour later (and THIS pissed me off) to "So can I come over?" 

No.  What part of "no" don't you understand? 

I don't want to be one of those girls.  I don't want to be some booty call.  If that's all I am and am going to be, then I think it's time to put it all out on the line and point this out.  Next time this happens, and it's not at 1am when I have class at 9...we are definitely having a talk about this. 

I need to know where this stands and where it's going.  Because honestly, "I just want to see you tonight" makes me wonder.  If it means I have to allude to sex in order to have this little chat, so be it.  But, boy will he be in for a shocker.